Journal Topics: 3/18 to 3/31 2020
March 18: For me uncertainty makes me feel very anxious and as to whether it's good or bad is something that just really depends on a person or situation. I personally don't like uncertainty because it makes me feel insecure about the situation. For example, one club I am part of called CFLA is a leadership development club and we had to put on an event for a target audience we wanted. Well throughout the planning we had gathered all the materials/money needed to pull off this community however we need the people. So when it came to the day of the event it was a public event and we just had to wait to see who showed up. That uncertainty of not being able to know how much people would show up gave me a lot of anxiety throughout the planning process because I had worked so hard on that event, that I wanted it to be successful. So uncertainty is definitely different depending on how you look at it because some may take it as a positive while others see it as a negative.
March 19: As we are now on quarantine the people I miss right now are my friends and my family (besides my intermediate). I miss getting to see my friends everyday because they are what makes my days interesting and they are there for me if I ever needed any help. Now that we can't see each other it really makes it hard to check in with one another to see how they are doing or just talk to help them/myself with whatever we need. I also miss my family besides my intermediate ones because I took for granted the opportunities I had to see them on weekends and holidays that now that I can't see them is really sad. However no matter how much I miss all of them I know staying away quarantined from them is the best thing for both them and I as we are protecting each other from getting sick which I believe is the most important thing right now.
March 20: As spring has now started there is technically no "significance" for it but I think it's important to know. Spring isn't my favorite season but I do love it nonetheless. To start off, the first thing I think of when I think of Spring is not just the flowers but "spring cleaning". As much as I think cleaning can be more of a task then a want to do, I think this is the best time to start cleaning. With the nature growing back to it's vibrant colors and the weather becoming clearer, spring becomes the perfect time to clean in order to start over or create something new of ourselves. I know some of that is done at the end of each year but I think spring is a better option because it gives you more time on what you want to change. This is why spring is important to me because it gives me a second chance to alter the way I live, dress, and think.
March 23: When I see the word "future" the first thing I think of is the moving "Back to the Future" with Micheal J. Fox and flying cars. The word future can also have a positive or negative connotation to it depending on how you look at it. Sometimes we look to the future for a "better tomorrow" hoping to make it better than the present we are living today or it can be seen as this foreshadowing "future" making us feel doomed and scared to come to truths with it. How ever you look at the future just depends on your perspective but its always best to look forwards and to keep moving forwards than backwards.
March 25: Today as I think about someone I'm really grateful for I would have to say my grandma. It's not very often that I say it, but as she gets older I've realized that every moment I spend with her is something that I should cherish and never take for granted. During this pandemic I've realized how valuable time and connection is with others and especially since my grandma is a target for this disease I've realized how under-appreciated our time is together. Well my grandma never takes any time for granted with me but I can't say if I reciprocate the same attitude before. My grandma has always been there for me in every moment I can remember, she is always supporting me in anyway she possibly could regardless of the consequences of the toll that it takes on her mind and finances. I'm thankful for everyday I get to spend with her and especially now as she is suffering in order to avoid the coronavirus. Therefore today I would like to say a big thanks to my grandma for everything she does, she truly is an inspiring woman.
March 27: Right now in March of 2020 the COVID-19 virus has now been called a pandemic of a once-in-a-century event and what's crazy is that I'm living through it. My life right now has pretty much gone off the rails as we try to deal with this pandemic. I am now quarantined at home with my family to try and flatten the curve of this virus but that means for me as a junior in high school, that the rest of the school year has gone online. Navigating classes online is something you'd think be easy for someone like me as I use technology all the time, however it isn't as easy and if anything it is pretty hard to work on alone during these times. Now without having gone to any public places you start to realize how severe this situation is and how significant it is to stay home in order to keep others safe. It's been a wake up call for others that at the end of the day no matter who we are, the virus doesn't discriminate against anyone so we are all in this together in order to help humanity. It's crazy how one day later on in the future my lifestyle changes and feelings right now will be in the history books later on for someone to learn from but I hope right now we continue to do the right thing and stay quarantine in order to make it a better outcome to go in history books.
March 30: As we go more and more into this quarantine I've started to realize how many freedoms I had that I took for granted. As small as just going to the store real quick to buy something that isn't that necessary, or just going out to eat ice cream with family or friends. These simple activities is now completely out of reach for me as any contact with the outsides world can put me and others in danger of getting sick. As a lot of things are happening because of this pandemic I think one stigma we are going to leave with after this is over is the sanitary hygiene paranoia. Before all of this when we would go to the store we would just buy what we need and leave but now we can't touch anything with our bare hands without wiping down everything beforehand. So once this is over will we still be very paranoid about these things that we can never go out in public the same ever again anymore. Just the thoughts from a teenage girl surviving the 2020 pandemic.
March 31: As to what makes a person "hard-core" or gentle is basically based off their reactions to certain situations. I think one misconception people have with these personality traits is that they think someone is one or the other but I believe its both just which is more prominent or which side is shown to others. For example depending on whatever situation we are in the side we shows depends on our comfortability with the ones who surround us. If we are with people we trust then usually we tend to be more open aka "gentle" but with people who we don't know as well we tend to put up some kind of shield in order to protect ourselves so we can come off as "hard-core". Besides that I don't think there is a difference between the two because they are just different "masks" we put on in order to make us feel more comfortable in the situation we are in.
March 19: As we are now on quarantine the people I miss right now are my friends and my family (besides my intermediate). I miss getting to see my friends everyday because they are what makes my days interesting and they are there for me if I ever needed any help. Now that we can't see each other it really makes it hard to check in with one another to see how they are doing or just talk to help them/myself with whatever we need. I also miss my family besides my intermediate ones because I took for granted the opportunities I had to see them on weekends and holidays that now that I can't see them is really sad. However no matter how much I miss all of them I know staying away quarantined from them is the best thing for both them and I as we are protecting each other from getting sick which I believe is the most important thing right now.
March 20: As spring has now started there is technically no "significance" for it but I think it's important to know. Spring isn't my favorite season but I do love it nonetheless. To start off, the first thing I think of when I think of Spring is not just the flowers but "spring cleaning". As much as I think cleaning can be more of a task then a want to do, I think this is the best time to start cleaning. With the nature growing back to it's vibrant colors and the weather becoming clearer, spring becomes the perfect time to clean in order to start over or create something new of ourselves. I know some of that is done at the end of each year but I think spring is a better option because it gives you more time on what you want to change. This is why spring is important to me because it gives me a second chance to alter the way I live, dress, and think.
March 23: When I see the word "future" the first thing I think of is the moving "Back to the Future" with Micheal J. Fox and flying cars. The word future can also have a positive or negative connotation to it depending on how you look at it. Sometimes we look to the future for a "better tomorrow" hoping to make it better than the present we are living today or it can be seen as this foreshadowing "future" making us feel doomed and scared to come to truths with it. How ever you look at the future just depends on your perspective but its always best to look forwards and to keep moving forwards than backwards.
March 25: Today as I think about someone I'm really grateful for I would have to say my grandma. It's not very often that I say it, but as she gets older I've realized that every moment I spend with her is something that I should cherish and never take for granted. During this pandemic I've realized how valuable time and connection is with others and especially since my grandma is a target for this disease I've realized how under-appreciated our time is together. Well my grandma never takes any time for granted with me but I can't say if I reciprocate the same attitude before. My grandma has always been there for me in every moment I can remember, she is always supporting me in anyway she possibly could regardless of the consequences of the toll that it takes on her mind and finances. I'm thankful for everyday I get to spend with her and especially now as she is suffering in order to avoid the coronavirus. Therefore today I would like to say a big thanks to my grandma for everything she does, she truly is an inspiring woman.
March 27: Right now in March of 2020 the COVID-19 virus has now been called a pandemic of a once-in-a-century event and what's crazy is that I'm living through it. My life right now has pretty much gone off the rails as we try to deal with this pandemic. I am now quarantined at home with my family to try and flatten the curve of this virus but that means for me as a junior in high school, that the rest of the school year has gone online. Navigating classes online is something you'd think be easy for someone like me as I use technology all the time, however it isn't as easy and if anything it is pretty hard to work on alone during these times. Now without having gone to any public places you start to realize how severe this situation is and how significant it is to stay home in order to keep others safe. It's been a wake up call for others that at the end of the day no matter who we are, the virus doesn't discriminate against anyone so we are all in this together in order to help humanity. It's crazy how one day later on in the future my lifestyle changes and feelings right now will be in the history books later on for someone to learn from but I hope right now we continue to do the right thing and stay quarantine in order to make it a better outcome to go in history books.
March 30: As we go more and more into this quarantine I've started to realize how many freedoms I had that I took for granted. As small as just going to the store real quick to buy something that isn't that necessary, or just going out to eat ice cream with family or friends. These simple activities is now completely out of reach for me as any contact with the outsides world can put me and others in danger of getting sick. As a lot of things are happening because of this pandemic I think one stigma we are going to leave with after this is over is the sanitary hygiene paranoia. Before all of this when we would go to the store we would just buy what we need and leave but now we can't touch anything with our bare hands without wiping down everything beforehand. So once this is over will we still be very paranoid about these things that we can never go out in public the same ever again anymore. Just the thoughts from a teenage girl surviving the 2020 pandemic.
March 31: As to what makes a person "hard-core" or gentle is basically based off their reactions to certain situations. I think one misconception people have with these personality traits is that they think someone is one or the other but I believe its both just which is more prominent or which side is shown to others. For example depending on whatever situation we are in the side we shows depends on our comfortability with the ones who surround us. If we are with people we trust then usually we tend to be more open aka "gentle" but with people who we don't know as well we tend to put up some kind of shield in order to protect ourselves so we can come off as "hard-core". Besides that I don't think there is a difference between the two because they are just different "masks" we put on in order to make us feel more comfortable in the situation we are in.
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